I want to remember how much inspiration I'm getting from Ali Edwards' blog. I think it's been a while since I've really followed a scrapbooking project or class and this is really amazing. I'm digging it completely.
Here's what I want to remember from our Thursday:
I want to remember that having a dog means that I vacuum the house every single day - and that Jessie is afraid of the vacuum - and that Jessie finds comfort in Allison's room even when she isn't here. The two of them have a special bond.
I want to remember that even though Mac doesn't want to be snuggled most of the time that he likes to be snuggled some of the time and that he desperately wants to be able to snuggle with Jessie - and that Jessie would barely let us touch her when we got her from Florida All Retriever Rescue and that she's come a long way and will tolerate petting and even a tiny bit of snuggling now. She likes to be near us but she is skittish about truly snuggling or being held down in any way. But when she feels like you want to pet her, she'll roll over on her back and fold her front paws and let you pet her belly.
I want to remember that this was the summer that he grew to be taller than me and he wants me to know that he can now touch the part of the ceiling that goes down lower than the rest of it - and that he's always wanted to be tall enough to touch this part - even though he wishes he weren't taller than me and he wishes that he could just stay a little boy.
I want to remember that we've made a lot of progress since we started home school last January and that it was a decision that we thought about for years before we made it. I want to remember to be patient with him and that he is trying really hard since doing school work is an enormous struggle for him despite that he is a naturally very smart kid.
I want to remember that eating breakfast and drinking coffee in the morning prevents migraine headaches in the afternoon. Although lately, I do get one horrible migraine a month no matter what precautions I take.
I want to remember that everyone in the entire house - even Allison - loves Boar's Head Honey Maple Turkey - and that we go through at least 2 pounds of it every week. I also want to remember how adorable Jessie is.
I want to remember to take photos with me in them - even if I don't have any make up on, even if I'm still in my pajamas, and even if I don't like the wrinkles on my forehead or the dark circles under my eyes. I want to remember to look past my own vanity issues and see the amazing love that my son and I share. He is amazing and he is full of love. And I want to remember that this was the photographic proof that he is taller than me. We had a whole discussion about it.
I want to remember that this was the week that he learned to play Twinkle Twinkle on the keyboards and that I taught him - even though I don't consider myself to be very musical and his Dad is a very accomplished musician. I also want to remember to get Daddy on board with the lessons in a bit because he can seriously teach the kids so much more about music than I can.
I want to remember that he needs time to chill. He is an introvert and I don't always understand the way his brain works or that he prefers to just be alone sometimes. I mean I get it but I don't always remember to really understand it. I also want to remember that computer and game time is best in small time limited doses with him. I also want to remember to clean up his room - he has asthma and is especially sensitive to dust.
I want to remember that I actually like car circle - it gives me a deadline to get dressed and made up already, to listen to podcasts and to see my girl. Today is 4 for 4 for me by the way.
I want to remember that Allison decided to try out for volleyball on her own this year; last year I insisted that they both do team sports - and she ended up loving volleyball - but over the summer she was on the fence about whether she'd do sports this fall and I desperately wanted to insist on it again but I refrained and let her make her own decision.
I want to remember that driving around is a great way to have really excellent discussions with her. We had to drive to Clearwater to get uniform skorts - there's a whole skort drama this week that I don't necessarily want to remember - but the time with her - today 3 hours in the car - I do want to remember. Just the two of us.
I want to remember our next door neighbor who has lung cancer, Hospice is here everyday and we understand that it won't be long. My husband and his parents moved to this neighborhood when he was six and he became best friends with the boy who lived one empty lot over - we now live on the empty lot that my husband and his friend, this woman's son, played on when they were kids. I've known her for the last 20 years and they've been good neighbors and we are close with the entire family. It feels like the near end of an era. This is one of the many roses that her husband grows between the property line.
I want to remember that these two are polar opposites in every way but that they are also the best of friends. They both love the shows on Cartoon Network and they bond of these, Minecraft, Wii games, and probably talking about what meanies Daddy and I are. We aren't actually mean - they just have no idea what mean is actually - I try to tell them about walking uphill to school in the snow and both of them think that sounds awesome.
I want to remember that he is making home school possible. I worked full time as an attorney since I was 25 years old - so for the past 20 years I've been a full time worker (actually probably more than full time); and I didn't stop working when we had kids, I never really took any maternity time, we've always been able to incorporate the kids into our busy work schedule. That all came to an abrupt stop last winter when we decided to homeschool Mac and homeschooling is now my full time job. Charlie keeps the office running and we have a good team but it is no doubt harder without me there.
I want to remember to ask him how his day was even though he almost always answers in the negative.
I want to remember that family dinners at the big table are important - even if we eat on paper plates.
I want to remember that Allison is on her 5th school - here's to hoping that this one is good - I have an optimistic feeling and she adapts to any situation - it's just that the schools where we live aren't all that awesome so private school is sort of necessary.
I want to remember that my baby is now in middle school and this is her very first locker.
I want to remember to stop and look up at the sky and appreciate the clouds - even on a busy day.